I forget to remember

I forget to remember the truth,
But when I do I wish it remained forgotten.
Its better being swayed all day in one's imaginations, than being shown that that there is nothing left of your aspirations.
Even that small ray of hope i thought i saw, was some drawing daylight going under the shaw.
I realise there is nothing left for me here, the land i once thought was all mine to bear.
I'm standing in the same place I stood that day when I had a choice, I chose wrong I know but now I can do nothing here.
I sometimes try & forget that any of this ever happened, but then I get reminded..& I wish, that it all went forgotten.

It was all just a..Dream

And then I realised it was all just a dream...when I woke up again hearing reality scream,
It doesn't matter how far I run...surrendering myself back here I have to return,
For the never ending pain to drench me again...& eyes pleading for tears to endlessly rain,
Searching desperately for a way to let go...the truth won't change & in time I'll get used to it I know.
But I still can't help swaying away to my thought's theme...only to wake up again & realise it was all just a dream.