I forget to remember

I forget to remember the truth,
But when I do I wish it remained forgotten.
Its better being swayed all day in one's imaginations, than being shown that that there is nothing left of your aspirations.
Even that small ray of hope i thought i saw, was some drawing daylight going under the shaw.
I realise there is nothing left for me here, the land i once thought was all mine to bear.
I'm standing in the same place I stood that day when I had a choice, I chose wrong I know but now I can do nothing here.
I sometimes try & forget that any of this ever happened, but then I get reminded..& I wish, that it all went forgotten.

It was all just a..Dream

And then I realised it was all just a dream...when I woke up again hearing reality scream,
It doesn't matter how far I run...surrendering myself back here I have to return,
For the never ending pain to drench me again...& eyes pleading for tears to endlessly rain,
Searching desperately for a way to let go...the truth won't change & in time I'll get used to it I know.
But I still can't help swaying away to my thought's theme...only to wake up again & realise it was all just a dream.

Lost somewhere...i found back myself!

I still do care but now it doesn't matter..,
I'm not sure am I just used to it or I just hide it in my chatter..
There was a time I thought without you I could never be..,
But then I realised there is more to life that I'm yet to see..
For once I thought I would never get up again..,
Drenched in this pain thoughts would drive me insane..
But then life showed me its not the last thing I'm gonna face..,
There would come more difficulties, more challenges, more sorrow for which I had to pace..
Friendship redefined its meaning and family helped me grow..,
I now know love is just a word people use..but no one actually feels it true..!
These realisations made me grow stronger..,
Others opinions on me I care for no longer..
Regaining confidence I'm trying to be the free bird I always wanted to be..,
And lost somewhere smiling I met back the person that was me..

Search for more

There is more to love than a stupid heartbreak..
More to friendship that friends who are all fake..
Let destiny take a miserable take..
We decide our tomorrow not just our fate..
Hardships come but so does joy..
With gloomy times comes days we enjoy..
When its all pitch black and everything feels hollow..
All alone on our own we lie with no one else to follow..
But then we learn to stand and let go of our hesitations..
We find a will within ourselves ignoring all other temptations..
Towards infinity we walk fighting the darkness of our mind..
And at the end of the road a ray of hope we do find..
To the same world we enter but with ourselves renewed..
Again searching more to life in the same land where we earlier stood. 

Love..can never be understood

A feeling so serene..and yet too mean,
Love has no definition..still people define it in many ways I have seen.
What is love? I never understood,
some live in it some die and others do what they should.
I don't know is it just attraction or infatuation that leads to love..,maybe its neither & into this I never went to shove.
Confusing as it is..its neither meant to make any sense,
It's just meant to be felt..when you heart starts beating for someone and you can play no defense.
What would be it like to fall in love I wonder..have I already fell or my heart is yet to surrender.
Its painful too..not all that wonderful as it seems,
Losing yourself..you sway away to some world deep down into its dreams.