Sunday, 26 February 2023

For all I know

For all I know, I'm fine.
Fighting somewhere in between the lines.
For all I know, I'm strong.
Maybe not that much or maybe I'm wrong.
For all I know, I will love.
Perhaps for the better, where feelings don't have to be shoved.
For all I know, some things will always hurt.
As I fall down, get up and dust away all the dirt.
For all I know, this too shall pass.
As it always does, until it lasts.
For all I know, I will know.
All secrets of summer & mysteries that lie under the snow.
For all I know, I will survive.
Through everything, and everyone, I will stand tall and thrive.

City Lights

 City lights makes me wonder, 

Of all the lives that live under.

Do they love the rain or are they scared of the thunder.

As the cloudy skies cover us with no stars to ponder.



The person who loves him

I’m not sure what hurts, the words or the emotions behind them.

Whenever he talks about the person who loves him.


Plastering a smile on my face I hold back my tears as they come,

Looking at his gleaming eyes as he goes on with his story about them.


I’m not sure what haunts me, the weight of my unsaid emotions or having to watch him fall for them.

Whenever he talks about the person who loves him.


Knowing I have to let go, I still try to hold onto him.

Trying to live my story in all those little moments with him.


I’m not sure what lasts, the pain of never being able to call him mine or knowing with each passing day I’m a day closer to losing him.

I recall it every second, every minute of every day, whenever he talks about the person who loves him.


Even with an aching heart, I hope it finds him.

The epic love story, the happy ending, the unconditional love he claims is yet to reach him. 


I’m not sure what survives, the memories, photos or vague uncaptured moments I have with him.

I hope I’m remembered, he’s remembered & we never escape each other’s lives, as he starts a new life, whenever he talks about the person who loves him.

Sunday, 15 January 2023

I will find…

 I will find a way.

As the day breaks,

the lights go dimmer,

& the crowd fades.


I will find a will,

Yet again,

Because I have to,

as life still remains a chase.


I will find a hope.

Which isn’t so hopeless,

where I won’t keep tumbling down from an open shoelace.


I will find a moment.

At late dusk or early dawn,

a moment I can call mine

& will remain with me as I walk through many in my own pace.

Thursday, 10 November 2022

I'll be there...Always & Forever

They say forever is a lie.

I disagree, for I have always hoped to find one.

I have tried, time & again.

But alas, promises fade & nothing truly ever stays.

Yet I didn't lose hope.

I’ve paced & chased & raced through time to change the times.

When I couldn’t find one, I tried being there as one.

Got hurt, ghosted, and felt like it was a waste of time.

But here we are where I find myself saying to you again, “I'll be there...Always and Forever.”


They say friendships are temporary.

I wonder how then some claim to be a family?

Well those claims do go false, those are the same bonds that hurt you like no one else does.

So much that you give up on the feeling itself.

Every attachment scares you, every past memory derails you.

But somehow like a miracle you find this person again, 

Who knows your demons, who knows you’re a mess, yet smile widely at you & say, “I’ll be there for you…Always and Forever.”


They say nothing remains a constant.

When has that ever stopped us from hoping everything will?

That we are different & it will be different for us. 

From building fantasies over romanticised theories of illusions.

Somewhere always knowing in the back of our heads, 

that reality might have a different story to tell.

We still find ourselves on this roller-coaster of emotions making promises, 

As we tell each other, “I’ll be there for you…Always and Forever”


They say what they have been told or they believe in.

We say what we want to believe in.

And time will say what it has to, which neither them or we know.

Rational or ideal, the idea still & will always remain vague.

I know we might not, but I hope the memories do stay.

Every time we met.

Every moment that led to it.

Every laugh, tears & smile.

Every hug where I didn’t let time go by.

I know we will not, but I hope it all remains etched in time.

Every instant where we looked at each other & our hearts have wished, 

“I’ll be there for you…Always and Forever.”