To a best friend

Everyone needs a friend,
I thought I found one in you.
I didn't mean to mess it up,
Somewhere I fell in love with you.
I accept that I grew selfish, that's why I took the risk of telling you.
But I didn't realise you'd judge me for it, or our friendship will seem a question mark to you.
You can very well be cruel, I'll still be good to you.
I've never pretended & never will, on what my feelings are for you.
Believe it or not, I'm not like everyone else.
I trusted you with everything in my life, yet all you are doing is hurting me in return?
I only meant good, I only wanted to be your life long friend.
To help you see the light, in the darkness you dwell in.
Prove the world wrong, they've never understood.
Keep your promise, don't leave me alone.
But I can't make you do something you don't want to,
If you really want to go go, I won't stop you.
I'll try to stay somewhere where my existence doesn't bother you.
& if God is kind enough then you won't have to wait for long,
I'll find a way, I'll dissappear, this silly girl who sings songs for you will be forever gone.
In my attempt to make everyone happy, I only trouble them more.
It's me who don't belong here and with me all worries will be gone.