Regret

I don't know how long..,
I don't know how more..
Fighting the waves I row..,
Seeking a land..a shore..
For months I have been stuck..,
In the middle of nowhere I duck..
With salt water tossing me up & down..,
I everyday in silence moan..
The day i entered this unknown path..,
I knew of the tempest & the for coming wrath..
But yet I defied my mind..& fled with my heart..,
Only to end up more wounded.. Alone..& tore apart..
Never wanted to reach this phase..in the delusion of desires I fret..,
Hoping for joy to reside lifetime..I forever for this mistake will regret.